Some chapters of after loss are sad, there are some chapters where you wish they would just end after one sentence. That's where I was, I didn't know what chapter I was on, after Joey died. I was so miserable, I don't even know if miserable is the correct word to describe it. I was … Continue reading Twenty-three months later
Well it's been 5 months since I've been on here, I constantly in my mind think about what I could possibly write. In 5 days it'll be 21 months since Joey passed away, and yeah I still count every month. Wonder when that will end.. Do I ever want it to end? 20 months, feels … Continue reading As life happens..
Well, the black dress was never planned now was it? Just like having to say goodbye, none of it was planned. Look at yourself in the mirror, black dress, tired eyes, water proof mascara... Just stare at yourself, none of it seems real. The world is spinning ten times faster than what it was 5 … Continue reading The lady in the black dress…
As I kissed your forehead goodbye and pressed my lips against yours for the very last time, I knew as I let go ofthat hand, that I was never going to be the same. The young woman that you fell in love with, and showed what love was... was slowly over the months going to … Continue reading Death kills you.
You know when you hang up Christmas lights and one of the bulbs go out and then all of them go out... You get angry and pissed off at the world because you just hung up all these lights and one stopped working.... Now what, you have to go through all of them just to … Continue reading Just like a string of lights
In today's world, I feel as though depression and grief aren't really discussed, by the people that are experiencing it and the people on the outside looking in. The months following Joey passing, I was a wreck. I wasn't eating, I had thoughts of what way would be the easiest way to kill myself, I cried … Continue reading Patience, Understanding and Love
Now a days there's always a book on how to do something, well let me tell you there's not many books on how to deal with grief or better yet how to grieve. Even if there was a really good book, I don't think I would read it. Yeah, you read that right. I wouldn't … Continue reading When you say I don’t miss him..