October 21st; Happy 35th Birthday Joey, I have a music playlist named "Joey ❤ ", it's not love songs but songs about losing someone from death. Who'd you be today by Kenny Chesney is on this playlist but I don't listen to it because a big part of grief is wondering who someone would be … Continue reading Thirty-five
You want to the know the difference between these two photos.. well it's pretty obvious, it's love. Growing up, it didn't bother me that my brother and I were just something you had to pick up every other weekend, just because the judge said you did. It bothered me that every other friday night, while … Continue reading Hey father,
Some chapters of after loss are sad, there are some chapters where you wish they would just end after one sentence. That's where I was, I didn't know what chapter I was on, after Joey died. I was so miserable, I don't even know if miserable is the correct word to describe it. I was … Continue reading Twenty-three months later
Well it's been 5 months since I've been on here, I constantly in my mind think about what I could possibly write. In 5 days it'll be 21 months since Joey passed away, and yeah I still count every month. Wonder when that will end.. Do I ever want it to end? 20 months, feels … Continue reading As life happens..
Well, the black dress was never planned now was it? Just like having to say goodbye, none of it was planned. Look at yourself in the mirror, black dress, tired eyes, water proof mascara... Just stare at yourself, none of it seems real. The world is spinning ten times faster than what it was 5 … Continue reading The lady in the black dress…
As I kissed your forehead goodbye and pressed my lips against yours for the very last time, I knew as I let go ofthat hand, that I was never going to be the same. The young woman that you fell in love with, and showed what love was... was slowly over the months going to … Continue reading Death kills you.
You know when you hang up Christmas lights and one of the bulbs go out and then all of them go out... You get angry and pissed off at the world because you just hung up all these lights and one stopped working.... Now what, you have to go through all of them just to … Continue reading Just like a string of lights